Well, hello there. I have nothing else to say but i just wanna update it. Some of you was wondering why i've been kinda emo sometimes, especially at Facebook. But don't worry, i'm okayy, i guess. As long as i don't think about it, that will do. I just needa stay happy just as the old me. Can't be always sad just because of 1 person. But still, imma gonna be sad inside of me but don't worry. I'm tired of this. And to me, it's just a small matter. But this person as if it's gonna hate me forever. If someone were to piss me, i may hate that person but it will be a few days, just like my bestfriend, Rick. But as for you, i don't know. If you're gonna hate me forever, fine. Go ahead. No comments. I'm tired & done with you. Might as well delete me in your contact list, since you don't wanna talk to me anymore. Well, i will did that, soon. By the time if you ever happen to read this and you know who i'm referring to, yeahh, delete me from your contact list as well if you don't wanna talk to me anymore. My phone is kinda far away from me now and i'm lazy. By midnight, i already delete your contact and i will never call/sms you anymore. Happy? Okayy good. Have a good life ahead. (:

Heyy again. (: Today's date is 6/11/2011, 8:59PM right now. Well yeahh, same thing, imma bored with my lappy here. Soo i think of just update my blog. Hehs. Anyway, i just came back from MY with bestie for 2-3days. I was still quite sad inside me, soo thinking of leaving SG for awhile. When the next day, 6hrs+ LAN, maybe it will cheer me up. But still, it's the same for me. And as well, being pissed of playing LoL(League Of Legends) for a few rounds, cuz my team is sucha "noob" and yeapp, keep on losing on a straight row. I was like "TOOT" lahh. Andd that game is like Dota. Youtube it. And soo, the 2days straight, we always sleep veryy late. The first day, we sleep around 6.10, when it's going to be morning time. LOL. We keep on talking & talking with the lights & everything closed. The 2nd day, 5.30 if i'm not wrong. But still, we wake up early.

If you wondering whyy i'm being sad on that 1st paragraph.. imagine that someone you really like/love, and being ignored by them. Like make them pissed, angry or something else. And don't wanna talk to you anymore. How would you feel? )':




If you're reading this, please forgive me. I'm really sorry. I was just asking, that's all. Well yeahh, i do trust you. Leave me a message if you really forgive me. I really, really sorry about that day. I was just too curious, that's all. I didn't really mean to make you pissed about that. Let's say, forget about it already. I may be smiling or laughing at the outside, but from my inside i'm really still feel the heart pain. It won't stop, until you talked to me and forgive me. My birthday is coming soon on 17 Nov. I heard that you're being invited. I was looking forward too cuz i really miss you. I hope you can turn up on that day. I'll be even more happier if you really come, really standing right in front of me. Once again, please forgive me. I'll promise i will never do that again, or anything that i might think it will
make you pissed. You may still hate & don't care about me anymore, even you blocked me. But still, i really care for you no matter what. I'm really sorry. I hope you'll text me, call or turn up on my birthday by surprise or something. Once again, i'm really sorry. I hope you'll forgive me after you read this paragraph. )':

Right now is Wednesday , 26 Oct , 7:53 in the morning . I'm still awake the whole night , can't sleep . Even i wanted to sleep , there's no place for me to sleep right now . Mum's room not even available . Abit only , wanna complaint . Goshh , might as well i no need to sleep siahh . Wait for my brother & my grandpa to leave their room , then i'll take over my brother's bed . Tskkk . Anyway , i'm applying work at CauswayPoint , Pizzahut . Yeahh , being recommended by my friend , a cousin . He used to work as a washer . I was like WOW . I wanna work like that if i can yahh know . Somemore , it's at Restaurant . Just at the back , washing plates . And you needa be fast or it will jammed . It's the only MOST jobs i can do and no need of face the customers . Just at the back , wash plates , then when enough , send it to the front . I heard that it needa kinda boiled at a hot water first . :B

I have nothing else to say now but , this past few weeks , there's only this girl in my mind that i'm always cared for no matter what , even i get hurt or whatever at the back and it was few months ago . I was trying to forget her feelings actually . But still , i really LOVE her and cared for her . Even if i like other girl for some reason , but still , she will always the most i cared for than the other girl . Tskk . I just wish if i could just be with her , forever . We're difference races , i knoww , but still , i really love her and cared for her . Yeahh , you know who i'm referring to after you read that line . Yeapp2 . But will she love me back ? I don't think soo . Haishh ..  ):

Heyyaa~
Sorry that i didn't update for a long time. I was very lazy. The time now is 1:44AM in the morning & i can't sleep. Currently using my laptop. Since i have anything else to do, might as well i update my blog. And yeahh, i was really busy during my school days. And also, i thought that i've found someone that i like but turn out that she's with the other guy at the end. Thanks alot ehh, my bestie and his girlfriend for hiding it from me all this time. You know, both of you should tell me super early, before my feelings for her develop more, bit by bit, even we didn't even talk to each other before. If she's attached at the first place, should just tell me at the begining. Duhh. And also, i thought that she was chinese and try not to like her. Love At First Sight, yahh know? Kay good. I really like her smile and all when the first time see-ing her. But what's about her? I don't even know more about her.

But nevermind, i'll never find my love, like seriously. Every girl i met, is always attached, reject me or choose the other guy, instead of me at the end. I've been hurt quite alot but soo what? I'm used to it. Like seriously, i ain't gonna go for another one and try not to fall in love with another girl. Every girl i like/love, i will never get it back at the end and get hurt. It always like this and i'm really used to it. But currently, i really love this girl, a chinese, for over 4months+ but by now it should be 5month or more? I have even greater feelings for her than
the other or any girl i met. I just don't know why i can't forget her feelings. Seeing her smile, laugh, happy that excite me, will even make me happier. Especially when she's with beside me. Besides, it's the final year to see her Dance, playing Piano and any talents that she have. ):

Heyy, imma quick update now. Needa go out soon, veryy soon. Probably after i update. Going out with who? Lepakk with my new awesome group & we named ourself, Gerekians. It was some of T1 friends, their Primary school friends. Kayy, Shahrul invited me to lepakk and soo i just come down. Soo i met some strangers from there but they're seem nice. I likeeee~ Some of them, i know but the rest, i don't know. I remembered, it was Teachers day, at night. There is where i met them. Andd up until now, i've been lepak with them.

Last 2 days was a bad day at the end when lepak with them at our usual place, Hall there. Few of them wanted to chase me and knock me down. I realllyyyyy like it alot because i was boredom and just wanna have fun. What will they do if they manage to stop and knocked me down? I don't think i wanna tell it here. :b
Well, they tried their best but still, can't make it. I've been running there and here, avoid their attacks,moves and spear. It was really fun ttm i tell you! Even they once manage to trap me down but almost, i manage to reflect it back and escape. From there, they all seems tiredd and give up awhile. I was like, Noooo ~ ): LOL-ed! It was really fun for me to do that. When we're relaxing, a girl, someone Ex over here too, wanna have a walk around. Soo we're all like, okaaay. And soon, they started to try chase me down, again. Whee ~
Halfway when we relaxing awhile, she suddenly come back and running, collapse at the hall and keep on breathing in and out quickly. Like, exhausted. All of us was like wondering andd if she is okaay. We talked to her, and she did cried abit and point to something. There's someone was actually chasing her. After one of my friend heard it, he don't give chance and wait, he just run as fast as if F1 Car where she pointed the area at. Followed by 1 more guy. I just took my watch, handphone and wallet, then followed by me~ But i didn't run or jog, i was really tiredd. 

Saw them standing at one spot after that. I asked them if they manage to get them but, nope. He let them escape first because there's 2 and meanwhile before that, he was the only one. Should be tall guy cuz i heard that they was riding a motorbike. And we're wondering whyy they stop chasing her after she almost reach at the Hall, where all of us are. They must be know that we usually over there and that must be why they stop chasing her when she almost reaching us at hall. I feel not satisfied after that. Wahh, they chase her until like that, trying to hurt her or something but then, don't wanna showed up at the end. I was like wtff ~ I rather ask them to try chase me down instead of my friends. To slow them down and they can kick their butts! Cheyy .__."  Kayy, imma going out now to meet them aites ~ Andd yeahh, it seems like as if we got a group costume too. All of us always wear a black shirt or full black when lepakk. Hehss ((:

Ohh by the way, how would you feel when the person you like/love, waiting for him/her for a veryyy long time
and halfway, the other guy/girl snatch it away from you even though that guy/girl just know him/her for a veryy short day than the person who is waiting for him/her. )): .l.

And yeahh, few days ago, i can't believe that i was actually on the phone with the girl i like last time for over 4months. That should be "Love" already rite? Hehs. Some of you might know who i'm referring to. Well actually, it was late night but not that late night, i really can't sleep at all. Soo i was lonely at living room, fb-ing, appstore and what so ever. Then, i randomly chat with some friends i know at facebook, including her. Well, it start with a normal chat and i was just asking whyy never sleep like that. Soo halfway, she just went offline. And few minutes, she texted me. It was soo rare for her to text me, cuz we didn't text each other for quite looongg time ago already. Soo slowly, i asked her to call me instead of texting. Besides, i'm using Happy Starr prepaid. If whoever don't know what that include, google it and you'll know why. I was expecting that it's soo gonna be a short call cuz we're quite speechless at each other but when chat/text, yeahhh. LOL-ed. But then, we're been talking like 1hour++, up until 3.34 like that, where she can't take it anymore. Her eyes was closing while talking to me. LOL. Soo yeahh, she should goo to sleep instead. Got school later on somemore. But for me, no need to worry. I'm always hyper at night that sometimes i can even awake the whole night and goo to school with just a small sleepy in me. Andd yeahh, someday she MIGHT be inviting me as well to go to the place where i wanted to goo soo badly. I thought that she will be with her friends but then, she told me that she's always alone goo buy. And i wanted to go there badly too, for the first time. And it's somewhere far. Soo yeah, she'll be inviting me as well to come along but don't know when. :B 

5.45 AM noww in the morning. Couldn't sleep at all already, i guess. Yesterday, i was really tired at the end until i went to bed early. Andd now, i'm awake. Just feeling abit drowsy & will went back to sleep again. I was boredd, soo yahh. Currently using my iPhone to type it out. 

Soo long i never update uhh.. I just feel lazy, that's all. Hmmm all i can say is, alot of sad feelings i have for the past weeks & days. I'm really tired of this already as it hurt me very badly. Yeahh uhh, she had mixed feelings. Between me & "him". That "him" is actually my Primary school friend. He's currently in ITE. How he met her? It was the day when Semb pri Carnival we meet. Then we bumped into her as we passby at block. From there, it was the day he met her & my day first time lepakk with her also. My friend even can whispered at me, if she's single or not. 

At first i didn't like her at all but she's kinda a good friend to me after we started texting each other. But now, i realised that she was actually after me. Soo yeahh, from there she followed us all the way, after my friend ask her to come along. After he went back home, it left me & her only at a chair there where we last seating together, waiting for Bus. In my mind, imma goo speechless for sure. But, she kept talking at me & i somehow didn't stop talking too. As if we already know each other for soo long already. We talked, laugh & even give me homework. To find out who's the person she referring to. Well, don't under restimate a "detective". Not even 1 week, i already figure it out. Anyway, from there is where i started to like her, bit by bit. Even send her home as well. 

I was shyy to say that i like her but my best friend help me instead. But it was already too late after few days. She pick someone else that was into her as well & attached. I was really heart broken at the end, Emo-ing the next few days. Then started to hate that guy. Somemore
he's a good friend of mine too. But when it comes to girls, tskk.. Like every month keep on change girl. She was one of them already uhh. Like 2-3 days he already get that girl soo easily. 

Well, i was really have a mixed feeling too on that day. But slowly, i choose her at the end, until now. But then, something bad happened, not even a month yet. Soo yeahh, they broke up.  Then now, i still really into her but ended up mixed feeling with me & my friend. We're both given 1 month for her to think & comfirm which person she wanna choose. But really, i don't think she'll pick me for sure.

Hey yozxc.. it's Wednesday now. Yeahh, finish my prelim 2 already. The most epic me during the exam is, i was sleeping during my Math paper 1. LOL-ed. I didn't really sleep well last night before that paper, and while i'm doing the question, it's making me even more sleepy. I even skip bout 2-3 question cuz i don't wanna stare at the paper and waste time. Didn't really skip uhh, i'll just do that question again when i finish the whole paper. But, after the whole paper ended, i wanna rest my head awhile. But then, i fall asleep instead. For 1hr+ .__. When i wake up, before that, i feel like my body was kinda shaking, as if someone is pushing me rapidly to wake me up but, no one. Even Rick behind me was just awake after i wake up. That's what i heard from him. And by the time i wake up, i was wondering whyy some of the peeps paper gone to? Few minutes, a teacher came beside me and wanna collect my paper. I look at the time, wthh? And yeah, some of my classmates were laughing cuz there's something on my forehead. At first, i thought they're laughing because i just wake up, blur2. But after at outside, some of them say that my forehead got something. It's like ink but red colour. It look almost like a triangle like that.  "Woii, you illuminati or what sia? Hahah". I was like what?? *Quickly wiped* . Huhh ? Before i rest on my table, there's nothing red ink or something on my table than just a plain front paper. Some of them say that maybe it's my watch. Do my watch have any red colour or triangle shape? Duhh. I was resting at my arms, not with my watch on top of it.

Fasting month, veryy siann lehh. Soo boring, cannot eat or drink but need to wait for break fasting. Siann laa.
Then at afternoon, i'll just sleep if i'm at home and if no one inviting me out. If they invite me earlier, the better. The later, then bye2. Asleep already. Then Celebrate National Day at school. Alot of my classmates never come uhh! Even the class is empty when the time is at around 7.18 like that. Meanwhile, 1 more of my classmates also just arrived. Since no one, Rick and me just walk around, look at parade square and all uhh. But then, few more just came to school. Like 6-7? Duhh.

Yahh know, now days i actually easily downed when it comes to love. Yeahh, i still love that girl in the end like, veryy. Even when in class when teacher is teaching, sometimes i cannot concentrate well in class. Thinking bout her while listening to teacher is really hard. Until i even lost where am i. That time when during english lesson, slowly2 i cannot focus well, until i'm widely lost, i just kinda put down my pen, hug my bag & just look at front. I just can't do it anymore. After all finish, i'll just lend Rick paper & copy . :L
Somemore, she's Chinese & i'm Malay. Idkk if difference religion can be together or not. There's once, i like a Malay girl like finally, forget bout that Chinese girl in exchanged for that Malay girl. But in the end, someone else took her. ): Then slowly like bout a week, i fall for that Chinese girl again.. I didn't really mean to love her. Cuz of the "incident" she did at me, when there's no one else ever did that to me. You imagine, when ou have crush on someone, that guy/girl did something good at you like.. idkk. *BUT NOT EHEMM STUFFS AITES* . Anyway, she once did that to me , where a girl didn't to that to me before. Somemore before that happened, in my mind when i first time see her, i feel like i'm liking her for no reason. I don't even know her at all yet. I just love her smile & all. After that, something happened & i feel touched, being loved. The "ultra" feelings for her. I got the feeling that it will only happened for awhile, for sure. It's not really a big thing. Even when at night, i still got the strong feelings towards her. I feel like Urghh ): I text my bestie then after that, and he told me to "relax" ~.~ Well yeahh, up until now, many months have passed, i still love her. I heard from my other bestie that she's attached actually. Bout last month ago.. i guess i will still waiting for her.. it's hard to let her go and move on,  than just treating her as normal friends. I mostly like it when she's smile.. During National Day Celebrations at school when at hall, after she pop-out with her CCA friends, i was quite starting at her for awhile, look other way then stare again, all over again. It's just.. >_< She's look really beautiful on that day (':

This song, is for you. ((':