Wahh few days already never post. Hehs. Wanted to post but my internet connection wireless very slow. Alot of my family using wireless duhh. Then me, can't even get in because of the
. But now, finally can. I don't think i have much to say now~
But ya know, the girl i love out of no where heard that she's crying at outside. Probably outside her class. Being scolded by teacher. I was alert by my bestie, when i was playing soccer during my recess. Sayy that got bad news. I thought what thing but then, she's crying. "huhh?!?" duhh. I wish i can go over there but i just simply can't leave the court yet cuz i will get scolded for sure. In the middle of the match manzxc. Now then my bestie know that i really care for her? Duhh!
As P.E finish, i wanted to come over but mg bestie requested not to go as to let her rest, leaving her alone. Okayy fine.. After eating, i still wanna go over there but same thing, he won't let me. But then last min we go together, with one of our friend. We're just passby but didn't see her around. Wahh! Walk slowly while looking at the window, still nope. When at night, i just found out that she's been in the toilet, lock herself in there for 3 periods. I was like wtheckk! Hope that she won't do anything stupid stuff such as cutting her wrist. I mean, slash. I was worried bout that earlier when recess. Well, at least she's okayy now. Went to canteen to see her after school also. But nevermind, too many friends crowded around her .__. Kayy uh, imma off my browser now & relax at my room till i fall asleep or listening songs. It's 11:48 now uhh. I'm usually hyper at night. :B
Songs
Monday, July 18, 2011
I'm using my iPhone to post now. Hehs, like that also can uh. I was giving it a try but wow, can work. I guess when i'm lazy to use computer, i'll just update from my iPhone browser uhh.
Well anyway, i could'nt sleep yesterday late night. My beloved cat, the same thing, hang outside my house there. Just wanna get some sleep. The cat is somehow is still awake. I just open my door and play with the cat. Just seating near my door only uhh. Like bout 1hour, the cat slowly fall asleep already at outside. How i do that? Don't do anything will do. Slowly the cat closed her eyes. Went back to my room, do nothing than just stare at my top wall while lying down on my bed.
Alright, the next day, something small that feel like making me wanna cry. After i get ready myself for school, i was packing my bag. Putting back the books inside. As i picked up the css booklet thinggy, a small piece of paper just drop from inside that booklet. It's a piece of blank paper with "insertname" name with it. Aiyahh, it's Sammy as her nick name. The full name? Bluekk! Anyway, i already forgot bout thag piece of paper inside that booklet. Totally forgot. I was once really love her. As you know, she was the one that changed me at the back. If not, i dont think i'll be smiling more at outside. As she talk to me on the phone, to just smile than my normal look. Must look happy. As you see me always smile and at my picture. When she saw me, she usually smile, wave or both at me. But sometimes i'll just nod abit like that. That's why she asked me to just smile back at her next time. Not just for her but, to all my friends too. It's just embarrest for me to do that. I dont know whyy but, yeahh. The next day, i did smile at her back. Slowly, i syarte to random smile or just wave if i saw my friends passing by me. ThAt's why. Hehs.
And as i've told you before, when she gonna go back to her country back and might not coming back, you just don't know how i really feel and how much i cried at my room alone at late night before her flight wanna take off. I even feel like not sleeping the whole night, crying. Even before that, at school, early in the morning i already feel no good cuz i thinking if when she's not here anymore in this school. But as you know, the flight delayed cuz of the disasters. I don't think i'll be smiling if she really leave and never come back. Well, i dont love her anymore but the friendship feeling is still remain in me. Without her over here, i'll be super sad and for sure just emo, keep quiet and prefer to be lonely. We're just bestfriends to each other now. She got a boycriend already anyway. But nahh, i dont love her anymore but the strong friendship towards her is still with me. Kayy, should stop here now. Feel like crying when i typed bout few lines already.. And honestly, i even cried abit before leave my room. My mom kinda saw me from my eyes and asked if i'm okay. I'll just say yeahh, why? Ohh, just now uh.. Got small dust, then i shoo, went into my eyes, thats why my eye like that uh . Lol-ed. Perfect lie story to my mum uh.. She just diam only. Thought that it's bout love matter.
Well anyway, i could'nt sleep yesterday late night. My beloved cat, the same thing, hang outside my house there. Just wanna get some sleep. The cat is somehow is still awake. I just open my door and play with the cat. Just seating near my door only uhh. Like bout 1hour, the cat slowly fall asleep already at outside. How i do that? Don't do anything will do. Slowly the cat closed her eyes. Went back to my room, do nothing than just stare at my top wall while lying down on my bed.
Alright, the next day, something small that feel like making me wanna cry. After i get ready myself for school, i was packing my bag. Putting back the books inside. As i picked up the css booklet thinggy, a small piece of paper just drop from inside that booklet. It's a piece of blank paper with "insertname" name with it. Aiyahh, it's Sammy as her nick name. The full name? Bluekk! Anyway, i already forgot bout thag piece of paper inside that booklet. Totally forgot. I was once really love her. As you know, she was the one that changed me at the back. If not, i dont think i'll be smiling more at outside. As she talk to me on the phone, to just smile than my normal look. Must look happy. As you see me always smile and at my picture. When she saw me, she usually smile, wave or both at me. But sometimes i'll just nod abit like that. That's why she asked me to just smile back at her next time. Not just for her but, to all my friends too. It's just embarrest for me to do that. I dont know whyy but, yeahh. The next day, i did smile at her back. Slowly, i syarte to random smile or just wave if i saw my friends passing by me. ThAt's why. Hehs.
And as i've told you before, when she gonna go back to her country back and might not coming back, you just don't know how i really feel and how much i cried at my room alone at late night before her flight wanna take off. I even feel like not sleeping the whole night, crying. Even before that, at school, early in the morning i already feel no good cuz i thinking if when she's not here anymore in this school. But as you know, the flight delayed cuz of the disasters. I don't think i'll be smiling if she really leave and never come back. Well, i dont love her anymore but the friendship feeling is still remain in me. Without her over here, i'll be super sad and for sure just emo, keep quiet and prefer to be lonely. We're just bestfriends to each other now. She got a boycriend already anyway. But nahh, i dont love her anymore but the strong friendship towards her is still with me. Kayy, should stop here now. Feel like crying when i typed bout few lines already.. And honestly, i even cried abit before leave my room. My mom kinda saw me from my eyes and asked if i'm okay. I'll just say yeahh, why? Ohh, just now uh.. Got small dust, then i shoo, went into my eyes, thats why my eye like that uh . Lol-ed. Perfect lie story to my mum uh.. She just diam only. Thought that it's bout love matter.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Ohh hii. So long never update uh. Lol-ed. Eversince sportfest, the day after. Yeapp, i have no time to update few days after that and slowly, i'm getting lazy. Until i almost forgot that i have blog. Someone just reminded me cuz, they asking why my blog dead already. Orhh, lazy ahh. Lol-ed. Well, many things had happened, sad things happened, love things & a lot more.
The last month, 1month holiday thinggy, i did alot of nothings but usually went out to Sun Plaza hardcourt there to meet my awesomeness friends & Frisbee-ing. They will always there, everyday without fail. Lol-ed. This is keep on continuing until the end of month holiday. The last 3 days i finally get to go out of Singapore! Went to Cameron Highland manzxc! Quite cold over there somemore uhh. And i'm being forced to go there soo, no choice. But nevermind, i wanna get out of Singapore for awhile, that's why. Boredd. Passport also just make, soo i'll just go. And same thing, i can't even sleep at the bus like almost the whole night already while on the way to my destination. I'm usually quite hyper & awake at night, that can even make me awake the whole night also can. In the bus, i only sleep like about 1hour and i was awake the whole night, from bout 2.30 all the way until morning when the sun rises. What did i do the whole night at the bus with long hours? Listening to songs, making the chair like bed mode, then starting at the sky with lots of beautiful stars & think of someone. That is where i fall asleep for bout 1hour and awake the whole night. The bus drive kinda fast, until it even reach at 4.00AM in the morning. But cannot go up yet cuz it's too dark and we reached too early.
We rested at a.. erm.. this place where relaxing or what. Hard to explained. Got sell foods and all uhh. Some of them are at outside while some others at the bus, relaxing/sleeping. We have to wait till bout 6.30 then can go up. And wanna know why? No lights, that's why.
The last month, 1month holiday thinggy, i did alot of nothings but usually went out to Sun Plaza hardcourt there to meet my awesomeness friends & Frisbee-ing. They will always there, everyday without fail. Lol-ed. This is keep on continuing until the end of month holiday. The last 3 days i finally get to go out of Singapore! Went to Cameron Highland manzxc! Quite cold over there somemore uhh. And i'm being forced to go there soo, no choice. But nevermind, i wanna get out of Singapore for awhile, that's why. Boredd. Passport also just make, soo i'll just go. And same thing, i can't even sleep at the bus like almost the whole night already while on the way to my destination. I'm usually quite hyper & awake at night, that can even make me awake the whole night also can. In the bus, i only sleep like about 1hour and i was awake the whole night, from bout 2.30 all the way until morning when the sun rises. What did i do the whole night at the bus with long hours? Listening to songs, making the chair like bed mode, then starting at the sky with lots of beautiful stars & think of someone. That is where i fall asleep for bout 1hour and awake the whole night. The bus drive kinda fast, until it even reach at 4.00AM in the morning. But cannot go up yet cuz it's too dark and we reached too early.
We rested at a.. erm.. this place where relaxing or what. Hard to explained. Got sell foods and all uhh. Some of them are at outside while some others at the bus, relaxing/sleeping. We have to wait till bout 6.30 then can go up. And wanna know why? No lights, that's why.
Anyway, what i've learn from that place is, full of strawberries thinggy, the other place is also full of Cameron tea thinggy. Lol-ed. There is even strawberries chocolates selling at most shops. I was quite random after that
cuz wanna see what they sell. I randomly picked a small packet of chocolate & eat. Quite nice, soo the other shop that i pass by, i took another big packet of Chocolate for the someone that i love, since she really like chocolate. Another things is i buy a keychain to some of my friends. Ermm actually, my besties & the person i love. I don't carry much money soo i can't buy a lot..
When the school starts, i was wondering how i wanna give the Chocolate & a keychain to someone that i love, cuz i was quite shyy. Always. The first thingg is Keychain, i asked my bestie to help me to gave it to her.
But the chocolate, i'm not sure yet cuz she is with friends meanwhile. Like veryy paisehh duhh. When walk away halfway, i will surely feel regret if i don't gave her chocolates since i have brought it from far just for her. Soo turn around, bestie also wanna help me with that but, i refused & try to gave it to her face to face. But i asked my bestie to be beside me as well uhh. As i walk towards her to give, i was kinda feel like stunned & wondering whyy i'm doing this with the shyness with me. There's no way to turn back now cuz somehow i think her friends saw me. As i was about to tap her, her friends already told her that i was approaching her & then turn back. ERRMM... i forgot bout this. Hehs.. 1 of her friend already snatched it away from her after i gave her cuz like kinda greedy like that. Wow, scary. Lol-ed. Soo i asked them to share to them as well. And guess what, bestie left me alone at the front when i gave it to her. He was laughing & said that i was cute when
gave it to her cuz of my shyness. Haishh .___. Yeahh manzxc, thanks alot for that.
Have yall wondering why i have been using the same Pen, the pen that always with me at my pocket for uniform & Top P.E hanged there? It was that someone i love, ever gave it to me. Uhh, i don't know why she gave me that but, i'll just take it. She was using that pen at first. After finish, she just throw it to me. I mean, at the table, sliding towards me. I was like Huhh? Uhh, then i'll just take it uh. Well, it was the only & first thing ever that she gave it to me uh. Nowdays i have been using that pen all the way, putting at my top pocket when not in used and hanged at my top P.E. If i lost that pen, i swear you, i will be pissed & sad manzxc! And also, that pen also quite nice to write & for spinning. Lol-ed.
Haishh.. every night, she usually will texted me & started a conversation. But one day, suddenly everything changed. I don't know why. Even i texted her, she won't reply. Soo for few days or like a week she didn't text me nor each other. I felt hurt, as if i did something wrong until she didn't wanna text me? I don't know. Every night, when the time comes, i always kept my phone with me or even kinda stare at it. I was wondering if she would text me. But still, nope. Haiishh. But nah, it's okay now. But at outside, we're still normal as friends. I was thinking if i got did something wrong that she might be angry at me or something. Sometimes she
would randomly text me uh. Ehh kay, i should stop here already laa! Got alot more other things to type but i guess i type too long now. I spend like bout 20mins already uh.. 11:46PM now, imma sleep. Nahh, i wanna read book. Can't sleep manzxc!
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Well yeah, SportFest yesterday. Kinda fun, not quite bored. I
thinking that i don't wanna participate at any sports thinggy. But i'll just join
if there is not enough players. And for sure, it's Soccer. But then not just that, even
FloorBall too. I was uhh ? Kayy uhh, since we're not enough players, i'll join. Next is Soccer. Ouhh,
yall asked me to join too, is because yall wanted me to be Goal Keeper right? Hehs, anything. I just love
when the ball coming towards me, high or low, fast or slow, i will just gonna reflect it back with my hands/arms. It's fun for me. Wahahahah. The first match when my opponent wanna score, i was happy cuz i was very bored standing at the back there uh. Like C'mon, at least for once? LOL. I used my right leg to reflect it back, and i didn't really mean to reflect it hardly back to the right sight, which is out already by then. But, lucky didn't hit at people uh. The ball was quite high. Then the back of me, where people sitting/standing there watching us playing, already shouted "wahhh!". LOL-ed. The first and 2nd match win by, scoring a penalty. The score was 0-0. Lucky the 1st match i saved the ball by reflecting back uh. If not, haishh .
Well, the first Soccer match i watched is the Sec1/2. Yeahh, i saw that the girl i like is in there playing. Soo i was standing there with Rick, watching/supporting. And yeahh, she was goal keeper. Well, her class win anyway, thanks to Syahirah scoring. Squirrel power ! Hehss. After 1 match, i straight away chiong to Multi-purpose hall, to be with my classmates to watch Floorball. Cuz after they brief us, i needed to go multi-purpose hall with my classmates but just because i saw that the girl i like is in Soccer court, playing soccer, i'll just stop by and watch awhile lorr . Lol-ed.
Anyway, she run quite fast at running track, until my classmates even support her by shouting her name, which is at her back of her shirt. Before that, Rick called me and asked me to come to Multi-purpose hall, cuz our other friend is playing Floorball. I was like uh ? But *insertname* is running lahh, wait lahh..! After she finish running, i chiong to multi-purpose hall. By the time i come, they just finished and just walked out. I was like, Heheh..
Well anyway, longg time i didn't post/update my blog eh? I was being lazy. :B And yeahh, alot of things, LOTTS of bad things happened.. Being hurt, ignored & more.. Well, everyday at night & morning i'm always being felt hurt. The girl i like, usually always texted me at night & morning me in the morning, mostly every weekdays when getting ready for school. But now, everything changed.. I just don't know why but i wished to know whyy. & now, i feel like i'm annoying her when i text her. Soo, i won't text her anymore, unless she text me. Weeks have pass, & i kinda feel abit better now. I gave up on her, but i still LOVE her. I hate her for what she done to me, getting this hurt feeling at me but i don't hate her for being my friend. ((: Yeapp, i still like her, being my friend but i just hate her for giving me hurt feelings towards her, that's all.
Thursday, May 05, 2011
I really love you at the beginning just because you're damn pretty. Now i'm really love you as friend & turn out to be bestie at the end. Cuz you always be here when i'm down. If someday you really needa leave here, forever just like that day, i won't be smiling again easily & i don't think others can cheer me up that easily, just like that day.
I love my bestfriends , especially YOU. ((:
Well, it's exam season right now. It's soo sian but can go home straight away after exam. The first paper(Tues), already sleepy in class uhh.
It's MT, my top worst enemy subject! I don't even have enough time for that paper. It's only 30mins. But lucky, i managed to finish it & it's last bout 10mins. No time to take a nap as well. Then 2nd paper after break , English P1. Hmm okay2 lah, normal. Same thingg, kinda not enough time & no time to nap as well. The teacher uh, never say "You have 10mins left" like that. Out of no where, suddenly the teacher said "Put your pens down". In my mind, i was wtheck! And just hentam the last question of MCQ. Well, lucky it's last question. What if like bout 5 or more questions haven't done yet? Wahh!
Anyway, i make a new friends already uhh. Was chill with Rick after exam and met his friends. Today, met them with Rick and slack awhile at SSC. I was soo badly wanted to buy the new chapter book at Popular. Before that, we met JiYong at foyer and went to SSC together. He wanted to go LAN and Rick & me going to SSC. Soo we go together and ride the SSC shuttle bus. We accompany him to LAN awhile & of course, we don't allowed to play but we can still come in, chill, talk2. Well, soo long i never see those LAN owners. JiYong.. just wearing P.E can play LAN already. Duhh. Seating there, talk2 to them and shooo, off to SSC. Meet our new friends, slacking there until Popular shop is opened. Wheee ! Finally get to buy the book, at LAST! And meanwhile, my dizzy is getting wider & wider but i try to tahan longer but, sorry, imma head home. But ended up at Rick house watching a movie that i haven't watched yet.
Evening, slacking again at Admiralty with Rick cuz his mum and her friends is coming along at my food court eat. Soo we ride her mum car as well when i'm going home. Put my bags at home, and the kitchen is empty. (Y) Changed clothes and go down to meet him & slack. & again, met them and slackk ~
Had Math Paper 1 today and it's HARD! Well , not all. But some questions i do that looks easy, will for sure be wrong as well. The paper setter is not our subject teacher that teach us, but the T1's teacher teach. Nahh , Paper 2 of course will be our subject teacher that will do Paper 2. Soo, go do revision & what our math subject teacher teaches us ! Goodluck yall ((:
I love my bestfriends , especially YOU. ((:
Well, it's exam season right now. It's soo sian but can go home straight away after exam. The first paper(Tues), already sleepy in class uhh.
It's MT, my top worst enemy subject! I don't even have enough time for that paper. It's only 30mins. But lucky, i managed to finish it & it's last bout 10mins. No time to take a nap as well. Then 2nd paper after break , English P1. Hmm okay2 lah, normal. Same thingg, kinda not enough time & no time to nap as well. The teacher uh, never say "You have 10mins left" like that. Out of no where, suddenly the teacher said "Put your pens down". In my mind, i was wtheck! And just hentam the last question of MCQ. Well, lucky it's last question. What if like bout 5 or more questions haven't done yet? Wahh!
Anyway, i make a new friends already uhh. Was chill with Rick after exam and met his friends. Today, met them with Rick and slack awhile at SSC. I was soo badly wanted to buy the new chapter book at Popular. Before that, we met JiYong at foyer and went to SSC together. He wanted to go LAN and Rick & me going to SSC. Soo we go together and ride the SSC shuttle bus. We accompany him to LAN awhile & of course, we don't allowed to play but we can still come in, chill, talk2. Well, soo long i never see those LAN owners. JiYong.. just wearing P.E can play LAN already. Duhh. Seating there, talk2 to them and shooo, off to SSC. Meet our new friends, slacking there until Popular shop is opened. Wheee ! Finally get to buy the book, at LAST! And meanwhile, my dizzy is getting wider & wider but i try to tahan longer but, sorry, imma head home. But ended up at Rick house watching a movie that i haven't watched yet.
Evening, slacking again at Admiralty with Rick cuz his mum and her friends is coming along at my food court eat. Soo we ride her mum car as well when i'm going home. Put my bags at home, and the kitchen is empty. (Y) Changed clothes and go down to meet him & slack. & again, met them and slackk ~
Had Math Paper 1 today and it's HARD! Well , not all. But some questions i do that looks easy, will for sure be wrong as well. The paper setter is not our subject teacher that teach us, but the T1's teacher teach. Nahh , Paper 2 of course will be our subject teacher that will do Paper 2. Soo, go do revision & what our math subject teacher teaches us ! Goodluck yall ((:
Sunday, May 01, 2011
Alright , my "Full Story of My Life Time In Primary School"
During Primary 1-3, everyone is nice person to me but everything changed when P4, slowly. As when reach P6(First Year), most of their attitude already changed. Well yeahh, started to smoke & all, but i just, diam. I once followed them where they always wanted to go to after school before remedial class start, leaving their school bags at the canteen and off to outside. And there is where i know, they went to a block, a staircase, then Smoke. It's kinda, Haish. Even almost all of my classmates, their attitude is damn worst. Skipping the lessons that they don't like, by running outside the back door of the class, before the teacher enters. Especially MT lesson. Yeahh, they always did that. With their attitude like that, i don't think i can help them at all. Soo i just ignore them and just go do whatever they like. In meanwhile, i have 2 awesomeness friends. They're good, and not like them. And of course, close friends of the year. We're usually together sometimes after school. And yeah, i do really miss them and i can still remember their faces. Sadly, i can only know 1 of their name, it's Hendra. The other one, i totally forgot. On that year, i don't even have a handphone & Facebook don't even exist yet(It's FaceMatch meanwhile). Only if it existed on that year, we probably add each other & can still contact each other from there, right? Well okay, whatever. In my mind, i always which that i have classmates that are awesome, no bad attitude like skipping lessons, fight back at teacher and making noises. And yeah, i didn't really study good in that year. When PSLE, yeapp of course, i failed & retain. My family disappointed with me, even some of them cried. But what about me, no feeling at all. Yess seriously. I don't feel sad or even wanna cry. It's just normal. Well, don't ask me. Cuz i really don't know. Maybe it's natural me. On the 2nd year, still kinda the same. And yeah, some of the "bad attitude" peeps retain as well. And, all of them are still the same. I kinda depress and just forget it. Haish. All i ever wanted is to get a awesome classmate, never make noises in class at all. >_< And at the same time, i did really fail, again. Didn't really study hard. And yeapp, i don't even feel that i'm sad at all. It's like, i fail my PSLE. Orhh.. And yeahh finally, those "bad attitude" peeps already gone too. I'm happy but, it's getting bored keep on retain. One of my teacher suggest me to go Northlight school. Hmmm whyy? Do you think i'm taking orders from you? It's my life, not yours. Soo i'm gonna retain because i'm still can. Even my family decline me to go to Northlight school. And yeahh, the 3rd year this time and no more chances. Once i fail this year again, i will permanently send to Northlights school, where all those PSLE fail peeps over there. And from there, i begin to study hard. I was wondering what's my next P6 Batch attitude is? Well, i don't wanna know. I'm tired of this already. I usually seat alone or with some strangers during recess time at canteen. It's like bout almost a week lonely. Didn't really talk much at class, or at all. Until, i've met this 2 annoying peeps in the bus. Out of no where when they entered the bus and saw me seating at the back(kinda emo-ing), they just kinda rush at me and say "HEYY!" *wide smile* . I was shocked and don't even know who are they at all. They asked what's my name, and kinda
crazy. Especially Iqmal(awi), where i first time met him over there too. The next day in class, i didn't even notice that those 2 annoying peeps is actually my classmates ! I was seating behind and they they are like, kinda seating abit further infront. His name is Hafiq. He randomly just look behind and when he saw me looking at him, he just smile and kinda like, ahh hard to explain. Kinda like wink like that. ORHH , they are my classmates. No wonder.. And from there, i've made a new friend, awesome friend. And from there, i started to seat with them at Canteen during recess time and making new classmates friends. And slowly, not just them but the other class too. 6G class. They are awesome too. Durhh. Making new friends over there as well. And this time, i did focus at class all the way when studying, and at least, less making noises and some is not at all. Especially Math. It's kinda my first time focusing on Math lesson 100% . It's easy when understanding. Even helped my classmates when they didn't really know. And also, first time ever i pass my Math exams. Usually i go blank. Started to hangout with them, even some in 6G too. Well, we like to play soccer. And i finally, had a friends like them. Finally, i pass my PSLE. And still, i don't feel happy or anything joy but, i'm happy to get out of this school at last. Earlier, my English teacher that anyhow predict that some of us that our names being called, will fail PSLE and she say she know it. That's include Hafiq and Iqmal(awi). But look, we passed. Afterall, i felt like god have seen my feelings, i guess? I do always wish that i wanted to have awesome friends. Maybe it's kinda making me purposely failing my PSLE, until reaching their Batch. Idk, but i guess maybe. But when reach Sec 1, kinda okay2 but most of my worst primary school friends are in CSS. They Sec 3-4. But nahh, they already graduated and i don't even see them now. Imagine, if i passed my PSLE on that year and with them, the same school in CSS, omqq i don't wanna be with them!
Their attitude still the same and this time, they got even gangs at outside and inside of our school. Do you still remember bout last year during hall assembly which is friday? Before it starts, a group of malay peeps beating a groups of chinese. Awww.. And yeesh, those malay peeps is mostly my primary school worst friends. But from there, my motto is, "We all know what is good and what is bad. If you're bad, you can't make a good person become like you."
But now in CSS, i've also met new awesomeness friends too. They're from my bestie friends, and from there, i made a new friends. I really liked them alot. That is the friends that i mostly i wanna have & be with. If yall go my facebook profile, notice that i put a list at the left , "Awesome friends" ? That's is why i made that.
During Primary 1-3, everyone is nice person to me but everything changed when P4, slowly. As when reach P6(First Year), most of their attitude already changed. Well yeahh, started to smoke & all, but i just, diam. I once followed them where they always wanted to go to after school before remedial class start, leaving their school bags at the canteen and off to outside. And there is where i know, they went to a block, a staircase, then Smoke. It's kinda, Haish. Even almost all of my classmates, their attitude is damn worst. Skipping the lessons that they don't like, by running outside the back door of the class, before the teacher enters. Especially MT lesson. Yeahh, they always did that. With their attitude like that, i don't think i can help them at all. Soo i just ignore them and just go do whatever they like. In meanwhile, i have 2 awesomeness friends. They're good, and not like them. And of course, close friends of the year. We're usually together sometimes after school. And yeah, i do really miss them and i can still remember their faces. Sadly, i can only know 1 of their name, it's Hendra. The other one, i totally forgot. On that year, i don't even have a handphone & Facebook don't even exist yet(It's FaceMatch meanwhile). Only if it existed on that year, we probably add each other & can still contact each other from there, right? Well okay, whatever. In my mind, i always which that i have classmates that are awesome, no bad attitude like skipping lessons, fight back at teacher and making noises. And yeah, i didn't really study good in that year. When PSLE, yeapp of course, i failed & retain. My family disappointed with me, even some of them cried. But what about me, no feeling at all. Yess seriously. I don't feel sad or even wanna cry. It's just normal. Well, don't ask me. Cuz i really don't know. Maybe it's natural me. On the 2nd year, still kinda the same. And yeah, some of the "bad attitude" peeps retain as well. And, all of them are still the same. I kinda depress and just forget it. Haish. All i ever wanted is to get a awesome classmate, never make noises in class at all. >_< And at the same time, i did really fail, again. Didn't really study hard. And yeapp, i don't even feel that i'm sad at all. It's like, i fail my PSLE. Orhh.. And yeahh finally, those "bad attitude" peeps already gone too. I'm happy but, it's getting bored keep on retain. One of my teacher suggest me to go Northlight school. Hmmm whyy? Do you think i'm taking orders from you? It's my life, not yours. Soo i'm gonna retain because i'm still can. Even my family decline me to go to Northlight school. And yeahh, the 3rd year this time and no more chances. Once i fail this year again, i will permanently send to Northlights school, where all those PSLE fail peeps over there. And from there, i begin to study hard. I was wondering what's my next P6 Batch attitude is? Well, i don't wanna know. I'm tired of this already. I usually seat alone or with some strangers during recess time at canteen. It's like bout almost a week lonely. Didn't really talk much at class, or at all. Until, i've met this 2 annoying peeps in the bus. Out of no where when they entered the bus and saw me seating at the back(kinda emo-ing), they just kinda rush at me and say "HEYY!" *wide smile* . I was shocked and don't even know who are they at all. They asked what's my name, and kinda
crazy. Especially Iqmal(awi), where i first time met him over there too. The next day in class, i didn't even notice that those 2 annoying peeps is actually my classmates ! I was seating behind and they they are like, kinda seating abit further infront. His name is Hafiq. He randomly just look behind and when he saw me looking at him, he just smile and kinda like, ahh hard to explain. Kinda like wink like that. ORHH , they are my classmates. No wonder.. And from there, i've made a new friend, awesome friend. And from there, i started to seat with them at Canteen during recess time and making new classmates friends. And slowly, not just them but the other class too. 6G class. They are awesome too. Durhh. Making new friends over there as well. And this time, i did focus at class all the way when studying, and at least, less making noises and some is not at all. Especially Math. It's kinda my first time focusing on Math lesson 100% . It's easy when understanding. Even helped my classmates when they didn't really know. And also, first time ever i pass my Math exams. Usually i go blank. Started to hangout with them, even some in 6G too. Well, we like to play soccer. And i finally, had a friends like them. Finally, i pass my PSLE. And still, i don't feel happy or anything joy but, i'm happy to get out of this school at last. Earlier, my English teacher that anyhow predict that some of us that our names being called, will fail PSLE and she say she know it. That's include Hafiq and Iqmal(awi). But look, we passed. Afterall, i felt like god have seen my feelings, i guess? I do always wish that i wanted to have awesome friends. Maybe it's kinda making me purposely failing my PSLE, until reaching their Batch. Idk, but i guess maybe. But when reach Sec 1, kinda okay2 but most of my worst primary school friends are in CSS. They Sec 3-4. But nahh, they already graduated and i don't even see them now. Imagine, if i passed my PSLE on that year and with them, the same school in CSS, omqq i don't wanna be with them!
Their attitude still the same and this time, they got even gangs at outside and inside of our school. Do you still remember bout last year during hall assembly which is friday? Before it starts, a group of malay peeps beating a groups of chinese. Awww.. And yeesh, those malay peeps is mostly my primary school worst friends. But from there, my motto is, "We all know what is good and what is bad. If you're bad, you can't make a good person become like you."
But now in CSS, i've also met new awesomeness friends too. They're from my bestie friends, and from there, i made a new friends. I really liked them alot. That is the friends that i mostly i wanna have & be with. If yall go my facebook profile, notice that i put a list at the left , "Awesome friends" ? That's is why i made that.
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Heyy readers ! :D Hahahah . Alright i shall update now . But first thing i wanna tell you is, i'm back from my Kompang group, Seronja ((: Yeapp , i decided to join in back . Syafiq prob will be his prob not mine . But then at the same time , Syafiq did come back to our group . Hahahah . Soo yeahh , we come for training last Saturday . Some of them even shocked and happy that we come back but, alot of people, especially Kompang lead, was asking Syafiq bout those things until he was force himself to leave the group. He was being troubled and his mum is kinda angry. And now, his mum let him joined back and yeahh, there he goes again. The next day, Sunday, got Kompang but, Syafiq and me skipped it. I was too lazy and i sleep late last night . I text some of them that i didn't go, including Syafiq and then off my handphone before went to sleep. But then, Syafiq didn't even go to. Hahahah . Besides , i don't even play Kompang alot now . I'm playing the other instruments that have 8 tones. You see it look heavy but it's actually veryy light. And i will feel very irritated when i see my brother-in-law coming too. Seriously, he is soo extra to me. Halfway im playing it, he will come to me and play. As i told you my few previous post. It's like veryy, grr >.<
Well yeahh , he is irritating now. He threat me like im his bf like that . Eeeww ! Especially when he text me or call me, the way he talk like sooo yucks ! It's the words actually . I'm just like lawwll okokok . Not just that, i have alot of things i'm angry about him and thats make me less replying his text msg/answering call. Or just, not at all. Well, i mostly did that. I was wondering who was calling me and when i see it, then i just ignore the call. He text me, depends on how i will reply it back. And same thing, mostly ignored . I have alott of things, too many things that i hate about him and i won't tell to anyone why . I'm just telling you that i'm just angry at him alot of things . Okayy i gotta chill now .
Anyway, last friday , at very last minute i get a form thinggy from form teacher at hall . When Assembly was about to start . He called me and give me a form. I was wondering . He told me that i'm the top students of this subject . I was like wtf ? I take the paper and see , it was DNT ! Lawl ! But still, okay lah , top student in DNT last year ._. Soo i'm not alone, Rick bestie won an award too . His CCA, BB. That's mean we will go rehearsal together soon eh ? HAHAH .
Oh btw, today after my school ends, i suddenly feel my left pocket got something feeling but i just ignore it. Cuz i know that my left pocket is just empty. I usually walk with my left hand in the pocket and when i do that , i feel a thick paper in my pocket. In my mind, i was like huhh? I take it out and the paper was folded. I opened it up and i don't even really know what it was saying or written ! The hand writing like soo D:
I only know a few words cuz looks understand . And what i see is, "4T2" and the word "student" and the rest is all bullshit hand writing. I showed it to Rick and he didn't even really know what is it. And yahh, the bottom right of the paper got a name and the same thing, the hand writing is very D: but i can read it properly. "Danial" and the bottom of it idk. I guess that is his signature. I was like WOIII ! WHO THE %^&* IS THIS AND HOW CAN THIS PAPER GET INTO MY LEFT POCKETT ?? -.- Rick called Alastiar and asked him if he can read this. He was looking at in like few minutes and he read it out while pointing the words ,"This is a permission pass for 4T2 and idk what is that word and it says student.". I was like HMM.. i guess this paper is a permission pass to go to toilet since the teacher don't have any pass. When i look at the name , I can't really read it but by looking at the first latter and the "shape" , i guess it is Danial but it written as Daniel.
After Alastiar left, i see that "permission" word and i don't think it is a permission. Looks difference than just the word "permission". And now what i think is, i guess Danial was going to toilet just now and was given this paper for permission cuz the teacher have no pass. And i believe he was slowly putting it in my left pocket, i hope so. I should have feel it when something was going in my left pocket cuz i usually do when Danial sneaking something at my left pocket. Idk if it is him that did it but i'm sure he did.
Okayy , not just one girl that i like but now , TWO! Grr . This one is quite precious to me now than the 2nd girl . I mean, i have more feeling at A than B >.< She even just save her phone number at my phone after lending it to her. I thought that we will never be friends, or just-know friends. I've only met her once, and she still say to me that i'm still stranger to me. Soo kayy , fine . But now, we are friends. It was after Canberrans Day Rehearsal and we went home and took the same bus . I'm with bestie and a friend beside me . She take the same bus and seated with us. We just talk2, chill2 like normal friends . When i look at her smile and everything, i still got some feelings towards her but nevermind . I just threat her as normal friends and i don't know if she will do the same thing for me, or just stranger. We did kinda joke2 around together, including bestie . Being poked by her just because i guess wrong thing . As that was continuing, i was still holding my hp
at my right hand just like i always do and the string thinggy that attached to my phone was in my arm. She just take my hp, without saying a word . She take out the string thinggy that i hang it at my arm, but i make my fingers wide so that she can't take it out. I was joking anyway and let her lend my phone then . Durhh , idk why she was looking at my contact lists and then , she called someone and wondering if her friend seating over there can hear/feel the vibrate. And i guess she didn't . But i didnt know that was her phone number. At the end, she said that she saved her contact no. already . I'm just okayy uhh . In few minutes, my mind was saying "err WHAT??" I check my call history and it was her name over there. I'm very shocked. And at the same time, she text me. Why she text me, cuz she was seating back infront, where her friends was seating. It's because bestie already drop off the bus. And yeahh , we begin to text each other sometimes :B
WAIT, IM NOT FINISH YET, ONE MORE THING I WANNA POST/TALK ABOUT THIS PARAGRAPH ! Hahahah nahh jokingg . This post looks too long already . Well , i wanted to post about my life during primary school and compare to secondary school, which is our school(CSS). I was texting with her last night. We text quite longg~ About 9 till 11.30~ Until i really wanted to fall asleep. It's bout this topic and we telling each other life. Well, she started it anyway. And after what i told her, and talk/text about my life, i wanted to post it at my blog too. Well, guess i will post it next time or next week then. Cuz i wanted to share with yall too ((:
Well yeahh , he is irritating now. He threat me like im his bf like that . Eeeww ! Especially when he text me or call me, the way he talk like sooo yucks ! It's the words actually . I'm just like lawwll okokok . Not just that, i have alot of things i'm angry about him and thats make me less replying his text msg/answering call. Or just, not at all. Well, i mostly did that. I was wondering who was calling me and when i see it, then i just ignore the call. He text me, depends on how i will reply it back. And same thing, mostly ignored . I have alott of things, too many things that i hate about him and i won't tell to anyone why . I'm just telling you that i'm just angry at him alot of things . Okayy i gotta chill now .
Anyway, last friday , at very last minute i get a form thinggy from form teacher at hall . When Assembly was about to start . He called me and give me a form. I was wondering . He told me that i'm the top students of this subject . I was like wtf ? I take the paper and see , it was DNT ! Lawl ! But still, okay lah , top student in DNT last year ._. Soo i'm not alone, Rick bestie won an award too . His CCA, BB. That's mean we will go rehearsal together soon eh ? HAHAH .
Oh btw, today after my school ends, i suddenly feel my left pocket got something feeling but i just ignore it. Cuz i know that my left pocket is just empty. I usually walk with my left hand in the pocket and when i do that , i feel a thick paper in my pocket. In my mind, i was like huhh? I take it out and the paper was folded. I opened it up and i don't even really know what it was saying or written ! The hand writing like soo D:
I only know a few words cuz looks understand . And what i see is, "4T2" and the word "student" and the rest is all bullshit hand writing. I showed it to Rick and he didn't even really know what is it. And yahh, the bottom right of the paper got a name and the same thing, the hand writing is very D: but i can read it properly. "Danial" and the bottom of it idk. I guess that is his signature. I was like WOIII ! WHO THE %^&* IS THIS AND HOW CAN THIS PAPER GET INTO MY LEFT POCKETT ?? -.- Rick called Alastiar and asked him if he can read this. He was looking at in like few minutes and he read it out while pointing the words ,"This is a permission pass for 4T2 and idk what is that word and it says student.". I was like HMM.. i guess this paper is a permission pass to go to toilet since the teacher don't have any pass. When i look at the name , I can't really read it but by looking at the first latter and the "shape" , i guess it is Danial but it written as Daniel.
After Alastiar left, i see that "permission" word and i don't think it is a permission. Looks difference than just the word "permission". And now what i think is, i guess Danial was going to toilet just now and was given this paper for permission cuz the teacher have no pass. And i believe he was slowly putting it in my left pocket, i hope so. I should have feel it when something was going in my left pocket cuz i usually do when Danial sneaking something at my left pocket. Idk if it is him that did it but i'm sure he did.
Okayy , not just one girl that i like but now , TWO! Grr . This one is quite precious to me now than the 2nd girl . I mean, i have more feeling at A than B >.< She even just save her phone number at my phone after lending it to her. I thought that we will never be friends, or just-know friends. I've only met her once, and she still say to me that i'm still stranger to me. Soo kayy , fine . But now, we are friends. It was after Canberrans Day Rehearsal and we went home and took the same bus . I'm with bestie and a friend beside me . She take the same bus and seated with us. We just talk2, chill2 like normal friends . When i look at her smile and everything, i still got some feelings towards her but nevermind . I just threat her as normal friends and i don't know if she will do the same thing for me, or just stranger. We did kinda joke2 around together, including bestie . Being poked by her just because i guess wrong thing . As that was continuing, i was still holding my hp
at my right hand just like i always do and the string thinggy that attached to my phone was in my arm. She just take my hp, without saying a word . She take out the string thinggy that i hang it at my arm, but i make my fingers wide so that she can't take it out. I was joking anyway and let her lend my phone then . Durhh , idk why she was looking at my contact lists and then , she called someone and wondering if her friend seating over there can hear/feel the vibrate. And i guess she didn't . But i didnt know that was her phone number. At the end, she said that she saved her contact no. already . I'm just okayy uhh . In few minutes, my mind was saying "err WHAT??" I check my call history and it was her name over there. I'm very shocked. And at the same time, she text me. Why she text me, cuz she was seating back infront, where her friends was seating. It's because bestie already drop off the bus. And yeahh , we begin to text each other sometimes :B
WAIT, IM NOT FINISH YET, ONE MORE THING I WANNA POST/TALK ABOUT THIS PARAGRAPH ! Hahahah nahh jokingg . This post looks too long already . Well , i wanted to post about my life during primary school and compare to secondary school, which is our school(CSS). I was texting with her last night. We text quite longg~ About 9 till 11.30~ Until i really wanted to fall asleep. It's bout this topic and we telling each other life. Well, she started it anyway. And after what i told her, and talk/text about my life, i wanted to post it at my blog too. Well, guess i will post it next time or next week then. Cuz i wanted to share with yall too ((:
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