I'm using my iPhone to post now. Hehs, like that also can uh. I was giving it a try but wow, can work. I guess when i'm lazy to use computer, i'll just update from my iPhone browser uhh.

Well anyway, i could'nt sleep yesterday late night. My beloved cat, the same thing, hang outside my house there. Just wanna get some sleep. The cat is somehow is still awake. I just open my door and play with the cat. Just seating near my door only uhh. Like bout 1hour, the cat slowly fall asleep already at outside. How i do that? Don't do anything will do. Slowly the cat closed her eyes. Went back to my room, do nothing than just stare at my top wall while lying down on my bed.

Alright, the next day, something small that feel like making me wanna cry. After i get ready myself for school, i was packing my bag. Putting back the books inside. As i picked up the css booklet thinggy, a small piece of paper just drop from inside that booklet. It's a piece of blank paper with "insertname" name with it. Aiyahh, it's Sammy as her nick name. The full name? Bluekk! Anyway, i already forgot bout thag piece of paper inside that booklet. Totally forgot. I was once really love her. As you know, she was the one that changed me at the back. If not, i dont think i'll be smiling more at outside. As she talk to me on the phone, to just smile than my normal look. Must look happy. As you see me always smile and at my picture. When she saw me, she usually smile, wave or both at me. But sometimes i'll just nod abit like that. That's why she asked me to just smile back at her next time. Not just for her but, to all my friends too. It's just embarrest for me to do that. I dont know whyy but, yeahh. The next day, i did smile at her back. Slowly, i syarte to random smile or just wave if i saw my friends passing by me. ThAt's why. Hehs.

And as i've told you before, when she gonna go back to her country back and might not coming back, you just don't know how i really feel and how much i cried at my room alone at late night before her flight wanna take off. I even feel like not sleeping the whole night, crying. Even before that, at school, early in the morning i already feel no good cuz i thinking if when she's not here anymore in this school. But as you know, the flight delayed cuz of the disasters. I don't think i'll be smiling if she really leave and never come back. Well, i dont love her anymore but the friendship feeling is still remain in me. Without her over here, i'll be super sad and for sure just emo, keep quiet and prefer to be lonely. We're just bestfriends to each other now. She got a boycriend already anyway. But nahh, i dont love her anymore but the strong friendship towards her is still with me. Kayy, should stop here now. Feel like crying when i typed bout few lines already.. And honestly, i even cried abit before leave my room. My mom kinda saw me from my eyes and asked if i'm okay. I'll just say yeahh, why? Ohh, just now uh.. Got small dust, then i shoo, went into my eyes, thats why my eye like that uh . Lol-ed. Perfect lie story to my mum uh.. She just diam only. Thought that it's bout love matter.